Saturday, December 25, 2010

Merry Christmas!

I'm back in Norcal (only for one more day), but I want to wish you all a Merry Christmas! I'm gonna spend my time with family now, so good bye! =D

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Back from retreat!

I want to write more, but I'm exhausted from retreat! More to come later on! =D

*Edit* Okay, I lied. I'm not going to write anything. =P

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Where we belong

I had this dream a few moments ago where the choices we make and do not make affect the outcome of our lives in a quicker and more drastic way than it does in real life. There was one sequence where I saw the choice to be obsessed with revenge spur someone on to suicide. It took away the life of a mother and child.

I woke up wondering, "Why? What's going on? Why would someone want to commit suicide that way? Why wouldn't this person let go of their anger?"

But as I tried to write everything down, my dream escapes me again. Curses... =(

Friday, December 3, 2010

People persons

Every time I meet up with a bunch of my friends, I realize just how much of a people person I'm NOT.

It's not like I hate talking to people, but I just don't have many interests that are shared with people around me. The things that I'm psyched about aren't very interesting for others and I'm not very good at carrying conversations about popular topics.

Still, I am glad to know the people I meet. I wish I could talk more intensely about Christ, apologetics, how crazy awesome a particular passage or section is in the Bible... but society has changed our views on religion as a topic that is boring and controversial... even between Christians!

I want to change that, but I am still a horrible communicator and motivator. As I keep growing though, I hope to find more strengths in my weaknesses and depend more upon Christ.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Mmmm... food...

I love food... but it's been tough for me to experiment with recipes when I get to tired from driving back from work. Still, I can't wait to be able to post up some awesome pictures of food that I made... once I am sure it tastes alright. =)

Also, I love peeling potatoes without a peeler! It's so awesome!

Saturday, November 13, 2010

GMC kids I'll never forget

Elliot Kang -- We share the same birthday! He also was very active in helping newcomers get adjusted with everyone at church... but his family is attending a different church. =(

John, Joseph, and Sam Seung -- They're hilarious and always finds a way to help... even when they don't mean to.

Jason (Forgot his last name) -- He was there when I was teaching 5th grade... I think? Super nice and helped me out with everything. He was always eager to help me out and I wish I could have helped him out more before he moved churches. =(

Samuel (Forgot his last name too) -- He was very hyper-active, but after he got used to his classmates and calmed down (somehow?), he was always trying to help out! He was almost always nice to me and was one of the few that kept talking to me in Korean until I told him I didn't understand. He moved back to Korea, but I hope he comes back.

Justin & Samuel Lee -- These two brothers were always so kind to me, but it was so much more touching that they were mediators for some conflicts between the other kids. Dang... they were seriously cool. All the kids missed seeing them.

Ryan & Justin Chu -- Dang, they try to help out so much! What really caught my attention was how they respected their teachers and were very good at listening. Their parents must be so proud of them!

Annika (Not sure how to spell her name) -- She was a very awesome mediator and was SO MATURE for her age! She had a lot of extracurricular activities, so she wasn't always able to make it to Bible study, but when she did, she was always eager to answer questions and raise questions of her own that showed her curiosity about the Bible. That's awesome!

Samuel & Sharon Lee -- Sharon was also very mature and always had something awesome to contribute to Bible study! Samuel was so polite and very patient for his age. Even when facing unfair situations, he held it in as much as he could and I could tell how much he tried. They both motivated me to aim for higher patience.

Jason & Jeffery Lee -- They are so funny together! Although Jason is usually unmotivated during class, when he gets excited, he really pumps more energy into class! I love the atmosphere when that happens! Jeffery is always a snug bug and comes to hug me a lot! He reminds me that, even though I don't like the love language of touch, everyone needs a hug once in a while!

Joon Jang -- Man... he's one of my favorite 4-eyed students! Really smart and very sensitive. He reminds me of myself as a kid (except for the smart part... I wasn't too bright...). He's very attuned to what's right and wrong and he can feel very strong emotions. In that way, I relate to him a lot... and I'm glad to see the moments when he expresses love to others. He makes me glad when he hugs me.

Joanne Park -- She was so quiet! That wasn't really what I liked about her, but when she asked/answered questions, it was, at times, profound! She should really speak up more, because there's a lot of thinking that goes inside her mind.

Josh Kim -- I think there are two that I'm going to mention, but they are both so awesome. They grew a lot since I first met them. Both of them had moments where they needed an outlet for all the raw energy they had built up (wrestling, air soft, paint ball...) and sometimes they took it out on others (verbally usually, but sometimes physically). Right now, they've matured a lot and learned to control it much better and direct it to something more positive. One of them is in Korea right now, but they're both super awesome.

David Kim -- Dang, this guy is always put into unfair situations. He'd tell me so many times and I just never knew what to say. I could tell that he put up with so much and tried to be patient all the time, but it just never met anyone else's expectations. Still, I saw the effort and I am still touched by it. He seems to be a lot more mature and more friendly, even through rough patches, and I hope I can learn much more from him.

Nicholas & Nathan -- Here are two brothers I love a lot. Nathan used to be meaner to Nicholas, but he has toned down and learned to control most of his temper. He has even developed a role as a mediator and, sometimes, caretaker for other kids. Nicholas has grown a LOT since I first met him. He still has trouble venting his anger, but he is really smart. He notices things that are unfair and tries to fight against it. He asks me a lot of "why" questions and I am really proud of him for that. It's that yearning for answers that is important, because that's where you'll eventually find God's answers for you.

Grace Jung -- Very talkative, yet very nice. She knows a LOT for her age and has many stories to share. If I need someone to answer a question for me, I can definitely depend on her... but I feel so sad that I can't always call on her. She has so many great ideas and examples that illustrate the Bible so well. I hope she never listens to the people who tell her to "shut up", but that she'll take every opportunity to voice her opinion... with discernment of course.

Tiffany Yoo -- Wow... she was the first 3rd grader who gave me a gift for Christmas and she didn't even know me that well at the time! She is so quiet and shy, but she is so respectful of others. I really want her to speak out a little more, but I do see her quietly serving others in the background and avoiding the temptation to seek attention for herself. It moves me to tears sometimes, because I wish more people would complement her for all that she does.

Hannah -- She is so funny! She is not only smart, but also talkative like Grace. She's a very excitable person and inspires me to prepare my lessons more so that we can be more kinetic instead of static. Her smile is something that brightens up my day when I teach.

Heidi & Melody Ku -- Really talented girls! Both are very smart, but I only know Heidi because I talk with her more often. She really understands right and wrong, often trying to mediate conflicts between kids... but it's hard because she is also impatient. She loves participating and is very playful. She texts encouraging messages to me and reminds me what I miss if I am away from SoCal and unable to teach.

Heidi & Peter & John Park -- Heidi is such a sweetheart! Silly, yet ready to answer questions, I admire her courage to give her best... even when she might be wrong! She hugged me when I wasn't even her teacher and it weirded me out at the time (because that was the time I wasn't used to hugging kids... or anyone for that matter), but she was one of the kids who taught me to show love through hugging. Peter always had a way to make me laugh and gave me a helping hand whenever he saw I was in need. John also helps out, but since he is in high school, it makes it even more amazing to me that he would give his free time to help out someone outside the high school department. Thanks a bunch to the three of you!

Kelvin -- You told me that I used to teach you... but I really have no idea that I did! Still, I saw how you greeted me every Sunday and I am so glad to see you all the time! You make me feel so welcomed at church... because I don't really know many people outside of CM. Thanks!

Timothy -- Wow... you really grew a lot since I first met you! I never knew you could be so kind (when you threw away your cynicism) and how you could make me laugh so much! You're very observant and I think that is an awesome strength you have!

Elijah Hong -- Somehow, you were always the one to spur me to exercise. You never really told me to, but seeing you sweat at church made me want to be someone who would stretch out my limits. Also, you were always kind and helpful... you mediated so many conflicts, although I haven't been able to see you lately. I loved all the crazy conversations we had... they were the best!

Daniel & Jin Lee -- You guys are so hyper! What in the world? But I really appreciate Daniel's helpfulness (although, sometimes he is reluctant). I also admire your love for Bible trivia... and you help me learn! Even though I never told you, you inspired me to read the Bible more! Jin, you have a hard time focusing, but the moments you do are so precious. I see the potential for you to become a great woman of God when you ask all those "why" questions. I love how you aren't satisfied with answers meant solely to dismiss questions, but you want a solid answer... and it makes me try to refine the way I answer you... even though you don't always listen to my response! =P

Really... there are so many more that I would like to list right now... but I have forgotten some of their names. I feel so ashamed that I have, but the memories that I've had with them are cherished. I've grown so much because of these kids and, dare I say, my kids... I have been inspired to teach and understand more of the Bible because of them. Thank you.

One day, I want to be able to share this with you all... but I'm just going to keep this to myself for now. =')

I'm gonna go cry now...

Monday, November 8, 2010

Empathy Machine

I wish I had an empathy machine... where I could step in the shoes of another person and understand their pains and hurts. Sure, it's easy to understand someone's happiness (to a degree), but for people I know who go through various hurts or frustrations, I want to be able to understand and relate.

We don't become close by just sharing in the happy moments and good times, but we become truly close when we understand or go through the pains together.

24a [...] God has put the body together, giving greater honor to the parts that lacked it, 25 so that there should be no division in the body, but that its parts should have equal concern for each other. 26 If one part suffers, every part suffers with it; if one part is honored, every part rejoices with it.
(1 Cor. 12:24a-26)

[In regards to loving others] 15 Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn.
(Romans 12:15)

I want an empathy machine.

Friday, November 5, 2010

Mark Bittman -- What's Wrong With What We Eat

Article: http://www.culinate.com/articles/the_culinate_interview/mark_bittman

I never realized how crazy my food consumption is and how simple it can be (well, it's still hard, but not as hard as I thought) to reduce my food consumption.

It's amazing to hear how we should be eating half a pound of meat per week! Also, it's interesting to hear what he says about vitamins vs. vegetables.

The article mentions (at the bottom) three easy to make foods we can eat to reduce our carbon footprint.

I don't know whether he is in the right or not, but I do see a glimpse of truth in what he says. What do you think?

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Choices... what will you choose?

Are we paralyzed by our choices? Are we less satisfied with our choices if we choose from a huge selection?

Opportunity cost subtracts from our satisfaction? Whoa...

Interesting talk! =)

Barry Schwartz: The paradox of choice

Dating and Marriage

Mark Driscoll's take on dating and marriage
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UnEF9_R1ctI

I totally agree with Mark Driscoll. Some points that stood out to me:
  • The point of dating is ultimately marriage
  • Why would you date someone when you know there is no future? It is abusing someone.
  • Who would ask their pastor to date his/her kids while explaining that they do not expect to marry them?
  • Don't worry about dating. Worry about maturing.
Although I don't think dating is the end of the world for someone's future, I believe time is better spent with people who can support each other in a serious relationship.

Friday, October 29, 2010

"Did you seriously just call me ignorant?" -- Rant

You know what really bugs me? People who complain about how ignorant a group of people are, yet their very own statement is a statement of ignorance.


Sure, people can be ignorant... but when someone make the statement, "Christians are ignorant", that person implies that all Christians are ignorant (even if that person didn't mean it). That person also comes off as ignorant, bigoted, and/or incapable of using logic.


To overhear people say that sucks, but to hear someone write it off by saying, "Oh, I didn't mean for YOU to hear that" doesn't justify anything. No apology? Or is that a sad attempt at one? That's another thing that pisses me off. When someone wrongs you, it is easier if you are reassured that they will try to tone down a bit and attempt to make up for their mistake. For some people, a spoken apology is enough. For others, they expect a promise or for the offender to make it up somehow. So if the offender does nothing at all? That's called being a jerk... but you can also substitute some more offensive synonyms in there as well.


I understand that people may be skeptical of Christianity or may be atheists. I don't find anything wrong with that, but I do find something wrong with people who find it funny to make a negative, blanket statement about all Christians. Those who are willing to discuss beliefs, whether disagreeing or agreeing, are okay, but once they cross the line... that just gets on my nerves. There's nothing intelligent about a person who haphazardly throws out jokes about Christians. Of course, there are times where you can make those jokes with friends where they know you do not have anything you or your beliefs, but they just found a joke that was funny... though, delivery and timing of a joke is important if it is meant to be funny.


There are limits to my tolerance and those ignorant statements definitely crosses the line.


People deserve respect... but if you can't respect others, what makes you think other people will want to respect you?

Monday, October 25, 2010

MY CAR BATTERY DIED!

Well, it did. I couldn't go to work and I have to find time on Tuesday to change the battery so if I do go to work, I won't be stranded there. Pictures of dead battery coming soon!

Edit: Here are the pictures!

Bad battery... because charging is necessary. Still doesn't work after you charge it. ARGH!
Good battery! But no indicator... still cool though.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Long overdue photos

I love it when CM visits Riverside! Charlston JDSN and Daniel Teacher came by and we had rising savor and went to see a movie. It was awesome... and yet I forgot to post up the pictures for a very long time... =(

BUT HERE THEY ARE! =D


Yeah, there are only 5 pictures taken, but we had some great food. I hope we'll get to hang out more often! =D

Saturday, October 23, 2010

After All is Said and Done

I've been thinking throughout the day about what my impact in this world was. If I passed away, would people just mourn and, later on, continue with the regular schedule? Or would people focus on serving God and basking in His love?

If I do pass away, I don't want people to be grateful for what I've done for them. I want people to be motivated to seek after God and realize the love that God has for them. So I write this now, just in case something does happen to me.

I want people to realize that true gratefulness for a person's impact in their lives result in action. I don't think I've done anything to warrant people to move in action, but I want to keep living my life and striving in that direction.

Of course, I don't want to be like Hitler or Mao Zedong. That's not the type of action I'm looking for. =(

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

What I Made For Small Groups

Here's a picture of the food I made for small groups! <3!

A sample of the egg sandwiches I made before... as practice
Left: Preparation; Right: All the sandwiches!

BOOYAH! Yummy egg sandwiches! I hope they like it!

Friday, October 15, 2010

Going home again!

<3
I don't want to focus on what I lose throughout my life. I want to focus on how much God loves me.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Sen Yeung Shu

For some reason, Tot-- I mean, Sen is someone I connect with really well. Out of all the people I have met in Riverside, he is one of the few people I can share a good chunk of my inner thoughts and feelings to (one of the others is James).

"Wha--, are you serious?"

Yup. Most people I am friends with are people who I connect through common interests, shared experiences, or shared values. I love hanging around them, but I just don't connect very well with them. My background is usually very different from them and the way I was raised made my thought patterns so much different from others.

With Sen, not only do we both come from 18 years of having a wary attitude towards religion, but we were both saved our freshman year. Because of that, we started off knowing so little about God, Jesus, and the Bible. It was hard to overcome the temptations we had because we could never realize how bad our temptations were.

When he told me he wanted to accept Christ after I gave my testimony... I was moved! He had made the decision before my testimony, but I got to hear how similar his thinking was to mine! Even though he seemed to be a really weird and creepy guy, I wanted to get to know him more.

As we talked, I realized the struggles he faced. Most people won't believe me when I say my English was horrible when I was young, but it was. Throughout elementary and middle school, I was bullied (verbally) for my crappy English. For the amount of time Sen spent learning English, he learned it faster than I did during my time in America!

No one really understands how wide the gap can be with language barriers. It is more convenient to make fun of someone who you have a hard time understanding, rather than taking the time to be their friend.

It gets even harder when people see just ONE instance of you doing something weird and forever implant in their minds that they already KNOW who you are. Sen faces that exact problem. People see him become obsessed with SNSD. They see that he has "otaku syndrome". They see that he plays too many video games. They see him being weird and saying things that may offend others.

And on the inside, they have decided to shun him and ignore him.

I HATE THAT! Not one of those people know the struggles he goes through when he makes it to morning prayer. They don't know that he is eager to know who God is. They don't know that he did QTs with me almost every day and even reminded me that we should do QTs! They don't know that he doesn't want to offend others and that he tries to watch what he says. They don't know that he just wants to be friends with people around him, yet notices how people distance themselves away from him... even if he approaches them.

JERKS! Yet, Sen has shown me that I do the same thing. He hasn't said it to me, but I know that there are some people I do not make an effort to know more. Actually, there are many people who I don't make an effort to know more. I don't hate them or think less of them, but I immediately have this idea that:

"I have nothing in common with them. Therefore, I shouldn't waste my time talking with them."

If I sense arrogance with people I meet for the first time, I feel like avoiding them. Man... and I don't even know their real personality! I already assume I know them just by my first impressions of them.

I can't jump to conclusions... that's not how math problems work, or CS problems, or Jesus' parables work. You can't go from receiving 10 talents to being banished from the master's property. We need not solely yearn for academic knowledge, but knowledge of our brothers and sisters too. Knowledge of our current and future siblings in Christ.

It's a big step, but so is transitioning from earth to Heaven.

You gotta do it sometime.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Growth

Even as I'm experiencing the working world, I'm learning about the areas I need to improve in. I never knew that I would still have to improve in the areas of patience and kindness. I still can't read the atmosphere very well and conduct myself in a manner that fits according to the atmosphere.

I was so agitated today, because I realized how much I ruined my sister's day and how I am not as encouraging as I thought I was. I might even have been so prideful as to think that I should lead morning prayer when the person who was supposed to lead morning prayer didn't show up before 7:10am.

I kept thinking that the books I read and the sermons I listen to have made me someone more mature and that I need to take action... but I forget that there must be patience to see the right moment to act and discernment for the right action to take.

I'm still growing and the experiences I've faced today have really pushed me to remember how I need to change. I am not done transforming from a caterpillar to a butterfly (... a manly butterfly, mind you...).

Lord, I still have the heart. I'm still looking for ways to improve. Thank you for showing me the pride I have to take down. I can't be talking all the time, because then I think I know everything. I can't just listen all the time, because then I won't take action. I'll go through this adventure with You, Lord... and I'll find that right timing for listening and talking.

I never want to be prideful... not now, not ever.

Edit: I'm going to keep myself from initiating conversation with my sister. I'm just making things worse when I do. I need to do more listening rather than more talking.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

The craziest dream I've had in a very long time!

This is a dream that has made me feel like a rebel, made me cry, made me feel like I hit rock bottom, and made me overjoyed! I just want to share it with you.


Dream transition~~~

~~==========~~

I'm chilling out with a bunch of my friends from KCCC, all excited for the grand opening of Starcraft 2 (I know, it came out already, but this is my dream). We're at this high tech elevator that floats without wires! As we all marvel at this awesome thing. It looks like we are standing inside a parking lot, but the ceiling is high enough to make us feel like it wasn't a parking lot. Where the elevator should be, there was a huge, jagged, and almost circular opening in the ground. Joseph Lee, my SW, almost stumbles into the "chasm" and I freaked out and pulled him away from it.


As we continued talking, the elevator finally came floating up.


It was marvelous! A towering elevator that looks kind of... biological? The doors opened in a way that looked slimy. A professional looking person in this black suit asks for registered guests to come into the elevator. I'm watching some of my friends go in the elevator and it floats up to the top.


Um... I don't want to sit around... this is boring.


Minutes later, another elevator comes up and I went into it with Joseph Lee.


Joseph Koo: Wait! I don't think you should do that!

Me: Nah, it's okay! C'mon Joseph (Lee)!


Joseph and I entered the elevator and the inside looked like a regular elevator. I found a hidden switch and I press the button to get to the top floor. When we reach the top, the ones who went before me turned around


"What are you doing here?"

Me: I'm just here to check out stuff


The moment I move past my friends, a siren/horn goes off repeatedly in short intervals! Everyone is FREAKING OUT and I see the manager walk briskly towards me, shoving my friends aside.


"GET OUT! You're not registered! The cops will be waiting for you downstairs!"


He said all that while pointing viciously at me. Cutthroat, no mercy... I freaked out and didn't know what to do. I left Joseph with my friends at the event and pressed the button to go to the bottom floor.


"Nah, no way this is real... this can't be happening to me! I'm not really in that much trouble, right?"


I was on the verge of crying, feeling an all time high of immense fear. Holy crap... what's gonna happen to me? I go down the elevator alone. Sad that I broke the law. Sad that I brought my SW with me.


When the elevator reached the bottom floor, it turned into a cart (what the...) and went towards an elevator operator. As I look into the distance, I could see an officer point at me and say,


"Yeah, that's the troublemaker."


He uttered a few more profanities that made me feel lower than a dog. My heart sank as the cart was passing the operator, who kicks the cart towards a fat cop.


"Get out of the cart! HURRY UP!"

I fumble out of the cart.

"Put your hands up! HANDS UP!"

I freak out, start crying, and notice a skinny cop shooting a rifle in the distance, alternating with the fat cop.


The skinny cop tells me,

"I knew this day would come. You almost killed my partner"

Me: What? He was about to shoot me! I had to--" (wait what? yeah... dreams are like that)

Skinny cop: "No, you didn't. You had a choice and you messed up. You screwed up big time ad you deserve to be in jail. YOU HEAR ME? You deser--"

Me: I know, I know, I.. I...I didn't want... It's all my fault..."


I bawled my eyes out and covered my face with my hands.


I thought I might get an easier sentence if I just admitted my wrongs, but the fat guy's expression told me otherwise. I started thinking, "Put me in jail already... I just want to get it over with..."


I lean back, wanting to sleep and forget all this crazy crap that's going on. As I lean back, I find myself resting on a familiar object. It felt warm and I realized that it was. My voice, cracked and coarse from crying, managed to blurb out one word...


"...Scott?"


I turn around and see Scott's back supporting me. I look in front of me and I see Josh and other guys in KCCC. They're cops, but they were different. They were relaxed, playful with each other. I look to my right and find two guys playfully pushing each other... probably trying to look tough. I look around and saw all the guys chatting away, comfortable and creating an atmosphere of brotherhood.


I ask Josh,

"Why are you guys so nice (to me)?"

Josh: That's just how we are.

I heard Phil's voice butting in,

"Uh huh."

Josh: These guys, they just have this connection...

Phil: Gayyyy...

Josh: It doesn't matter who you are.

"Whatever", Phil says playfully.

Josh: Whether you're one of us or an Israelit

Phil: You mean... Isrealite? *grins*

Josh: Man, shut up.


Just the fact that they didn't care I was in trouble and didn't treat me like crap... I was overjoyed! They talked to me like I was a part of their group and consoled me while I was freaking out over the whole incident. I felt my heart warm up and tears of joy welled up in my eyes. You guys are the best!

========~~

End dream sequence...


I finally woke up and I realized that none of this happened and the story was RETARDED, but I was still touched by all that I faced. Somehow, I <3 KCCC... even though they didn't really get me out of trouble. =/


My heart feels so warm and fuzzy inside. Reminded me of how I accepted Christ and the times we were all hanging out in KCCC... especially freshman year. I never felt so close people outside my family before.


Thank you for the memories. Let's create more for others!

Saturday, October 2, 2010

College finances

For this topic, I'm not really talking about the increase in university tuition or anything like that, but the way college students manage their finances. There are three (obvious) categories I usually see for students.

1. The frugal type
This type really tries to save money and doesn't attempt to spend money on anything that isn't necessary. They will cut away most of their luxuries and be focused on getting through school. They usually are aware of the financial situation of their families or really focus on being independent and responsible.

2. The spender type
Generally, they tend to spend money if it will do these things for them: entertain and/or make things convenient. They may or may not acknowledge that they like to spend money, but the ones that do not acknowledge the fact are usually people who are pretty selfish about their money (which is reasonable, if they don't cheat people out of their money). They may even have a habit of lying about the money they have and complain that they are poor, while buying expensive things for themselves just to keep people from thinking they are selfish with their money.

The general trend I see? They either focus on having fun in college or they can balance fun and studies well. Either way, they spend a lot of money.

3. The middle ground type
They can tend to shift to either side of the spectrum between frugal and spender. The values and priorities they have can change where they will be on the spectrum. I usually see them as the ones who are studious and tend to spend more money on academics than the frugal type to get resources that fit their study habits and help them succeed in classes. They can also be the lazy type who tries to save money, but eventually gives in to buying luxury items from time to time.

Now, all these types have their positive and negative trends in society, but I have one group that I get egged off by. Just a little bit.

The people in the middle ground type have this train of thought that they want to save money, but don't realize that, in the bigger picture, they are actually wasting money. The ones who go through college trying to save money on books, on clothes they buy, the food they eat, and/or any other category always forget that you can't save money if you are forced to take another year of school. Right now, that would be an extra $10,000. Would you be able to save $10,000 worth of stuff to break-even with that extra year of school? Worst of all, some of these students aren't even paying for college themselves. Their parents are earning money and trying to save it for their children's education and it is just wasted because not enough effort is applied to academics.

To waste your own money and your own time is one thing, but if you waste someone else's money and time, then that's just horrible. It doesn't even matter if you try to save money here and there, because in the long run, it would have just been a waste.

I wish there was more of an appreciation for the hard work parents put into their children's life and education.

// end rant

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Even a clock that does not work is right twice a day

I think it is such a valuable lesson to learn. There are people we look at who are totally unreliable and untrustworthy, but even with those people there are lessons to be learned. Even people who are wrong can still be right once in a while.

To be a thinking isn't to build up a list of people to ignore due to the frequency of their errors, but to analyze the truth in what they say.

I want to strive to be a thinker who sorts through everything I hear and learn from ideas, making sure not to reject ideas because of who they come from, but rejecting ideas that are wrong.

I guess this is one way I am learning to adapt to people I am not particularly fond of, though my reasons should stem more from the overflow of God's love.

I'm working on it! Really! =)

Friday, September 17, 2010

Finished w/ Hangman!

I am done with the foundations and all that jazz! I could put up images and start with that, but I'm going to experiment with some other coding projects first. I'm a little eager to create card images for my upcoming android program and learn how to use it in javascript too.

Ask me if you want to take a look at the hangman page! I'll be taking my sweet time this week to learn to make some decent looking sprite images.

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Javascript: Hangman

Well, I finished most of the hangman coding, so check out a preview!

Once I get a public website up and running, I can start to publish my pages. Also, I'm going to try to get some images to make it look nicer and have a better UI. =)

My sister helped me out a lot with debugging. Thanks! =D

While I was making this, I ran into so many problems that I never foresaw. One problem was browser incompatibility. I made the javascript refresh itself so that the text fields would actually reset. I also found out how easy it was to mis-click twice and accidentally lose your chances to get the answer.

I might try to put up images to make the buttons line up better and some other random things. Let's see how this goes!

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Understanding the Severity of "Lukewarm-ness"

Francis Chan - Lukewarm and Lovin' It
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X82kjL1hDYU

I saw the video at the link I posted above and I was heartbroken. I never realized that I really am rich. I never realized that I valued things that are so insignificant compared to the huge and vast God who holds out His hands for me. I am so consumed with the things I have that I do not realize that our HUGE God looks down upon our tiny, minuscule planet and is saddened by my obsession with an even tinier thing... video games.

Sure, I might not be someone who hates God and I am a person that longs to love God more... but I am not willing to give anything up to love Him more. Francis Chan makes a good point when he says the rich have a hard time entering the Kingdom of Heaven. He points out how rich we really are when we compare ourselves to the average wage a person gets in the world. We, on average, make about 100 times the wage of the average person in the world. They make about $2 a ____ (forgot what Francis Chan says).

Although he may be wrong about the numbers, I do know that the amount of things and money I have is more than what the average person in this earth will have. The majority of people on this earth are not considered middle class by the American standard. Since they don't have the "security" of money, giving up everything for God is easier (Not for everyone, since some nations persecute Christians).

What's even worse... Francis Chan points out the lukewarm Christians who KNOW they are lukewarm Christians and don't want to change themselves. I am one of them... and I hate it. There's so much more covered in the video above, so I won't go into that too much.

I've decided to fast video games and re-orient my life to be centered upon God... to be fired up for God... and lose that lukewarm-ness that I face.

Monday, September 6, 2010

Learning javascript

I've been trying to learn some javascript to add on to some of the skill sets I have. I made one for factorials (non-recursive) and I'm going to try to also learn HTML DOM so I can complement the javascript code and use it for forms.

I would put a sample, but blogger kind of interprets my code as part of the html to be used, so I can't really put it in at the moment. Maybe I'll try to write something that will parse my code so it can be put into blogger more easily.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Awesome group: The Gregory Brothers

I would post up a picture of it, but I don't want to just take the picture from their site. Still, check out their youtube videos. Just search for "auto tune the news" and you'll find some of their AWESOME work! Very creative and HILARIOUS!

I especially like the voice of Sarah Gregory. I think this song (Always Summertime) is a very good example (http://www.youtube.com/watch/?v=pT_4YytbF-w).

You can download it on itunes, along with various other songs from The Gregory Brothers. Dang, I've been listening to it for such a long time!

[Edit]
Oh yeah, btw, my merchant is now level 52/41! I could job change to blacksmith, but I want to level up vending and enlarge weight capacity. I think I'll try to change at job 50... but I don't know if I can finish that.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Leveling solo

There are not many guides for leveling solo with a merchant, so here is what I've been doing with my merchant.

My merchant is (planned to be) a hybrid agi/vit, where I try to aim for these stats as a 1st job:
50 str
40-50 agi
20-30 vit
20 dex

Right now, I'm level 46, but it took a pretty long time. At around level 40, I found that you can level pretty quickly with exp quests in mjolnir_01. All you have to do is hunt cocos and collect the acorns. If you collect 25 acorns, you can complete a quest from Nutters (293, 20) for some nice exp. If you do the quest for killing cocos, you can get good exp from that as well.
(It's no longer available at lvl 61... so that's as far as this will take me...)

Right below me is the NPC for the Coco quests. The one on the right does quests for Caramels, but that's too much for my character at the moment.

Almost all the guides I've seen recommend using elemental weapons, but I can't afford that right now. Bleh.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Back into RO... a little at a time

I've been getting back into RO, and it's refreshing to do so. I'm leveling my little merchant and trying to get to job level 50, but I think it'll take a while. I have 12 more job levels to go, but it's tough doing this solo. I don't mind though, gives me some time to hunt for items and wait for my sister to come play. =)

Trying to get some rough eluniums...

[Edit]
Before this map, I was leveling in smokies. Although it was decent exp and okay drops, I was just tired of leveling there. I decided to just kill stainers and horns for some decent exp and the chance for rough eluniums. OH YEAH, UPGRADE ARMOR! =D

Dreaming again

Today I had a weird dream after napping. Here goes.

At first, I was in LA doing something... probably waiting for a friend. Later I decide it's a waste of time to just sit there and maybe I would grab something to eat. As I was exiting, I almost hit a cop car that was heading to the same exit. I let him pass and stop behind him. He later moves behind this corner building near an exit. Later I see some thug looking people walk by and the cop got out of the car and chased them.

The cop then took out a nightstick and beat some of the thugs, but they took out knives, a gun, and used their fists to beat him up. They never fired the gun, but the police after fell into my passenger seat of my car. He was bloodied (not in my dream, but when I reported it later) and went back to take down the thugs, but he still got owned.

In total fear after a few minutes of not hearing him say or do anything, I drove as far as I could and called 911. The officer's partner picked up, listened to my explanation, and I magically teleported into his police car. He was going to use sandwich slices to defeat the thugs. WHAT THE HECK IS THAT?

Some how time passes by really quick and we failed. Later, we both were sent to boot camp to train. It was really tough and I don't know what happened, but it was just a whole bunch of kids being yelled at and told to run up hills. Somehow I passed the camp examination, and I stupidly re-enrolled into camp again. D'oh!

When I was in camp again, I saw some of my third grade students in their bunks and the camp instructor was talking to me, telling me to wash the dishes regularly. I said, "If you want, I'll wash it every day and anytime you want me too". He smiled and said, "Ok".
(This sounds so gay)

We all started to watch a movie (I don't know what it was about) and then I felt like spitting out mucus and blowing it out of my nose. I went to the bathroom several times and the last time I went, I started vomiting a black, liquidy substance. It was a slick substance that can slide on the sink a bit and it was super nasty. In my dream, I thought it was because of eating curry, but I never ate any curry.

Man, that was freaky.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Moldy strawberries and yummy dinner

I know the title kind of throws you off and you might be thinking, "How do those two things go together?". Well, I was shopping in Stater Bros. and I found those strawberries, and then I went home to eat a dinner that I wanted to show you. No, it wasn't the strawberries.

I was looking for strawberries for my kids the next day, but I saw this and thought, "Screw it, I'm just going to get some grapes".
For dinner, I had boiled eggs with fish sauce, tuna sandwich, and corn! Woot woot!

God's Image concert 2010: In Christ Alone & Mushrooms in UCR

Title explains it all:

I saw my third grade student (Heidi Ku) and her 1st grade sister (Melody Ku) perform on stage!
It was an awesome experience of worship... I was really touched by everyone there...
Especially when the performers got together and reminded everyone where they wanted their focus to be on: God.
Saw these mushrooms near the construction fences of UCR. Interesting. I wonder if they taste good...

Stuff I forgot to post

Here are some of the pictures I forgot to put up...

1. Eating with Chris, Scott, and James after cleaning SRB...

2. Sen's mattress in my room. Blargh.

3. James passed his driver's license test!
(15 = fail)

4. CUTE LITTLE PUPPIES! SO CUTE!
(I love sachi the most, because he likes to snuggle and sleep on me)

5. My favorite Chinese fob...
Found you in nor-cal! =)

Friday, August 20, 2010

Dream about Reno, expanded

There's this weird dream I had about driving 4 friends and my sister with me to Reno. On the way, we made stops and weird stuff happened, but I don't remember. Anyways...

When we reached Reno, we parked at some garage and we all played in the arcade (for some reason it escaped my mind that Reno was also for gambling). We all tried out the games and
had a bunch of fun, went to our rooms to sleep. That was when we heard Mui snoring really loud and she kept saying stuff like, "I'm hungry..." and "I'm bored...", so my friend next to me was laughing with me about it.

Right after, I was about to sleep when my friend next to me kept tickling me and I couldn't sleep. My sister YELLED at him and FORCEFULLY told him to quit it, with her body language signaling that she would kill someone if they bugged me again. (Aw, how sweet...)

I couldn't sleep (in the dream), so I walked to find where I parked, but I couldn't find it. The valet parking people were singing at the beginning of my search and they sang about everything I was looking at or looking for. The whole time I was scared that my car would be towed or that I would get fined.

I finally find the garage I parked in and suddenly it was so windy and I couldn't move myself forward very much. This little kid comes down from the hill I'm walking on and starts mocking me. He then uses his stick to poke me hard on the belly and says something like, "You probably won't even last a minute in the arena" (what arena?). I couldn't control myself and pushed the kid down and slapped him on the head a few times (oh my gosh... the whole time I did it I was regretting it). Then his brother came up and got really angry and warned me to never do that again (implying that he would probably kill me). He then goes to the little boy, who I was expecting to go unpunished, got punched and kicked by his brother and then placed onto the middle of the street. I was pretty much crying half way through the whole thing and asked them to stop. The brother then reached out and grabbed the little boy, putting ointment on him. He looked at me, almost as if he was saying, "Did you really think I was going to kill my own brother?". Whoa...

He started to go his way, but I ran to him and wanted to thank him for teaching me not to release my anger on anyone. He smiled and walked away. I later went into the garage and bumped into some kids from my Church and two of them who moved to Kansas. They looked at me and said, "Oooo, Jv teacher! I'm telling everyone that I saw you here!", like it was a bad thing or something. I asked them, "What did I do wrong?"... but they didn't reply and they walked to their cars.

Finally, I woke up. Dang, that was kind of intense and all the stuff that happened had something to do with my day yesterday and my thoughts today. So weird.

Moral of this story?
Never gonna take a power nap ever again.

working on something simple


Right now I'm trying to brush up on my programming skills and learn java/xml at the same time. I'm working on a simple flashlight application to get the hang of the android environment and (for today) get used to creating menus.

This is just a sample of the xml file that will make the menu for my program

It's nothing amazing so far, but I need something simple to get started on programming in a language I'm trying to get used to again.

[Edit: Adding on the inflating menu...]
...turns into -->>
Finally started to get the menu to inflate up when you press menu! Yeahhh!