Sunday, December 18, 2011

Slow Down or Speed Up?

A common problem people experience is speeding through life without a pause...

But I'm not completely part of that group.  I'm half-way in there with my schedule of programming and gaming, but half of the time I need to pick myself up and keep applying to jobs.  It has been a tough few months trying to get experience for software jobs.  I had almost given up on applying to software jobs and moving to IT jobs (which isn't worse, but my dream job is in software), but I started thinking about it.  Couldn't I just build my experience in whatever job I am doing?  I could just spend each day trying to build some kind of software while I am working in another job.

While I was limiting my options to just software jobs, I am now moving towards a wider range of jobs where I can learn and grow inside and outside of the workplace.  I will pick myself up and move forward, no matter how far away from my dream job I will be, I will inch my way closer to it.  As long as I don't give up, there will always be progress.

And I look forward to it.  =)

Saturday, October 1, 2011

H2O Friday Service

Wow... just wow.

First of all, I am glad I was able to come in the special Friday service where it was centered around activities, even though I look forward to the "small group" setting more than anything else.


Mainly because I only knew 4 people there.  I didn't even know if the people I knew would be there or not.  I'm starting to see how Friday services with activities are great for giving people breathing room to get to know others and develop relationships first, rather than being dumped into a small group setting and learning about something that doesn't yet make sense.

I was glad that people could approach me and have common interests as I do.  It was fun to talk about games, school, past experiences, and being able to joke around so easily.  I hope that I can start making more friends and become a part of the small group experience, because I don't want to just play hard.  I want my worship to be strong as well.

All in all, awesome day.  Great fellowship, loved the passage for today (Galatians 5:13-16, I believe?), and I hope I'll be able to come out to more!

(I still won't forget about GMC though!  I miss everyone at CM!)

Thursday, September 29, 2011


I've been looking around for some game programming libraries that would be easy to use and available for commercial distribution.  I found Flixel, which I haven't tried, but I looked at the games that were made and their tutorials and I am very impressed!

I will probably look into it within the next few days and try to see if I can get started on something simple and experiment.  I think it'll be fun to make a flash game without having Adobe Flash, but we'll have to see if I really can do it without having the program.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Programming Like Crazy!

It has been a crazy journey!  Picking up so much PHP, CSS3, Ruby, Java (Android SDK), and SDL... I couldn't imagine myself learning all these things so quickly, yet here I am!

I have still yet to make the programs for Ruby, but once I get the hang of it, I'll be able to push out some programs that may even help me with posting on blogspot without having to go on the site!  Yay, my first self-developed blog poster program!  =)

So hungry, so I'm going to get some food now!  =D

Saturday, August 20, 2011

I Want My Own Website

...But I need to earn money first.  It's weird being an "adult," since I haven't ever thought of myself as someone who is grown up (not to say I can't be serious, but I feel like my childhood personality is part of who I am).  I never thought I would have any issues looking for jobs, but here I am unemployed and still trying to get past the stage of interviews.

Still, I want to be able to make this grand website that is my virtual portfolio of what I have accomplished (not much yet) on my own (outside of industry) and show off.  I still want to make educational video games and have people purchase it and actually be something that helps students of all ages.

Well, I'm going to work up a prototype website after I get a game finished with SDL (almost done!) and maybe I'll post some screenies.  =D

But it's time to relax, sleep, and get ready for service tomorrow!  =)

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

The Start Of A New Journey

I finally created the bare basics of a Tic Tac Toe program (which was a lot more work than I thought it would be) and am going to build my portfolio of games as I continue to learn game development and SDL/OpenGL.

I really hate the process of creating images, but it's really not that bad once I get it done.  I guess I'll just keep trudging on as I learn more and more.

Anyways, gonna get a web domain and start posting all my projects while learning some of the web stuff that I feel like learning.  Woots!  =)

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Tic Tac Toe, Three In A Row!

Just made a simple TTT game with SDL, but I still have much to learn.  I'm going to take a stab at animation with SDL and see how that will work out!  =)

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Learning SDL

I'm going back to the basic in learning SDL so I can program some games for PC.  Of course, it won't be anything uber spectacular, but, as I get better at it, I will make something cool eventually.  =)

So far my goal is three tutorials a day.  Just like eating meals!  =D

Monday, July 4, 2011

Randomness Pictures

These are from a LONG TIME AGO!  But I'll post them up now.  =)

Ragnarok Online
I was leveling my merchant and found this nice view.  I like it.  =)

 My favorite dog of all time!  He was curled up right next to me.  =D

GMC: John
He drew a second pair of eyes and I decided to take a snapshot of it.  =) 

My (Old) Room!
The picture on the left scared me when I woke up.  I thought there was a person praying in my room in the morning.  The picture on the right was my desk.  Somewhat clean on top, but dirty on the shelves.

Yummeh dish that I don't know the name of
Oh my goodness... so much awesome meat!
I love eating side dishes!
Can't help it... need more meat!
Jello is awesome.  =)
Baked Chicken Marinated in Soy Sauce
I made it!  It doesn't look that good, but I love the taste!  =D
 Mission Team Reunion!
My mission team appa drove me to our destination!
He's a very happy person!  =)
Taewoo!  He's the only one who gets my gaming references.  xD
There's our team umma, Jane and Minah GSN!  They're hungry.
And we decided to eat here!
Again, forgot to take a picture before I devoured my food.  ='(
After everything, we decided to play Settlers of Catan!  YEAHHHH!
Title says it all!  =)

All the quesadillas have egg and cheese in it.  Oh man.... so good!
 My Sister's Letter

She writes very funny letters.  I love seeing what she has to say.  =D
I saw this spider hanging outside my car window.  I decided to take a quick picture of it.  =)

I tried to make something good, but it didn't turn out as great as I'd hoped.  It was still alright.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

What I Did Yesterday/Sunday (Pictures To Be Posted Later)

Yesterday I had the time of my life!  So much fun hanging out with my students and some of the middle schoolers!  Lots of basketball, Foosball, and just hanging out.  I wish I can buy them 7-11 everyday (well, maybe not 7-11, but some other healthy alternative) and continue to teach about the Gospel.

Oh... how I will miss GMC.  But alas, I must move back home and start working there.  I know that this move has made many people sad, but it is a great opportunity to be a living witness to my family and my mom will finally be able to see me again.

If there is anyone I could meet again in GMC, it would have to be my students.  I wouldn't give up a chance like that!

Saturday, June 25, 2011

='( (Sad face)

As time gets closer to the day I have to move out, I'm still sad and afraid that I won't be able to get any job offers here in SoCal.  If only I could get those software internships.  I'm going to miss all my students, fellow teachers, JDSNs, and the few friends I have at GMC.  I hope I can return if I leave, but if I get the chance to stay, I would be so excited!

Regardless, the memories I have here at GMC has really shaped me and molded me into a better person.  Lord, wherever you lead me, let me follow with all my heart.

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Job Search & VBS

It's another hectic time where two crazy events collide together.  I've yet to find a job in SoCal to I can stay @ GMC and there's also the need for volunteers for VBS.

I'm currently at GMC working on how I will present the material for the Bible Study station and how the decorations will look in the Bible Study station.  I hate the decorating part, but I am so psyched about how the station will turn out.  I can't wait to do all the activities, games, and stories and show all the students why I love Jesus... but I still have so much to grow in faith... in my own life.

So as I'm preparing, I'm really nervous.  I hope I will continue to learn about God and be able to share why I have that desire to seek after God in a way that my students will understand.

I can't wait... but I also hope I can get job offers soon.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011


I am very accustomed to staying indoors.  It doesn't feel weird if I don't see a speck of sunlight or feel the breeze outside.  Yet when I'm not focused on sleeping, eating, or working/playing on the computer, I start thinking how I am like a caged bird that is accustomed to my surroundings.  I know there could be better things out there, but I feel like my necessities are taken care of.  Food, shelter, comfort... yet there is this sadness that appears when I realize how much I like to isolate myself.

There aren't many people who I enjoy talking with and it is hard for me to enjoy the company of people who don't share the same depth of interest in my hobbies.  It's not that I hate people, but I hate feeling uncomfortable around people when I feel I make them uncomfortable (oh shoot, an endless cycle?).

Yet I have this urge to make a difference in the world.  I want to be able to let others know the glory and wonder and magnificence of God.  I want to make software that helps people learn or makes their lives more convenient.  I want to be someone who makes an impact in this world... but still be able to have my own small world of isolation.

I'm a little disturbed by this, because there is so much action I should take and there is so much more I need to learn AND do.  I really don't want to be a hypocrite to my students and I'm tired of being complacent... yet I cannot truthfully say "I do not want to sit around and do nothing."

So today will be a day of reading God's Word and praising.  I need to get stronger and break from this cocoon I'm in, for only relying on God's power can truly change my stubbornness.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Reminiscing: China

It's been a long time since I've been to China.  I miss all the people I've met and all the things that I've learned.  I looked through all the cards and letters I've received and remembered how much I miss sharing my testimonies and hearing the testimonies of others.
I still long for the time when I can come back and be active.  To connect with fellow brothers and sisters and share encouragements.  I pray that I can meet up with everyone I've befriended in China, because my life has been changed by each and every person I've met.  Thank you.
If I ever get the chance to go back, I would love to go to Hong Kong or Guangzhou, since I still have an easier time communicating in Cantonese, but I would not pass up the chance to visit Beijing or Harbin.  I have met some of the most awesome people there and it wouldn't feel right if I did not get to visit.
May our Father bless us with a chance to reunite,
Jv Chen

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Path Of A Super Novice: 3rd Login

Only could muster up one level today, since I didn't have much time to play, but I went from level 27 to 28.  I found out how hard it is to solo level a novice to level 45 using just int and dex .  Still, I'm trying to get my knight to level 99, so I'll probably post pone this until next week... but I'd love to get my instant cast SN finished!  =)

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Path Of A Super Novice: 2nd Login

So I ended my day off yesterday at level 21 and boosted myself up to level 26.  Since the St. Patrick's day event was going on, the fields were very dangerous to level in.  I ended up leveling solo in prontera sewers level 2 and got some good exp!  I even got to wear the Angelic sandals now!  =D

Path Of A Super Novice

Today I started my super novice and I'm going to do a mini-documentation of how it's like to (almost) start from scratch for the super novice.  There are some super novice equipment that I got from mini-bosses beforehand, but I didn't get everything.

Details about my super novice:

Skillsets: Mage/aco, bolter
Stats: int/dex
Starting equips: Angelic equips
Team play: No

I will be doing everything solo and will not steal equips from my storage (except to job change to super novice).  I made my super novice today, but I won't be leveling him much.  I'll do the fabre monster/turn-in quests and then slowly move to other mobs.  Let's see where I end up!

Monday, February 28, 2011

CM Lock-in

Man, it was so fun!  I was glad to have the chance to share about Christ to all the kids in CM, but what really bothered me was whether or not they actually understood how great it was to know Christ personally.  Getting closer and closer to God always brought about a joy in my life that could not be destroyed, but as I focused more and more on the secular things of this world... there was little substance in my life that amounted to anything valuable.

I don't want the lock-in to be my only time seeking after God and sharing with others, but for my whole life to be like that.  Lord, please help me follow after you.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Treating People Like People

This week, I was really irked by how people treat others.  First and foremost, (outside of the view of God) we should treat ourselves well.  Our body has kept us living, breathing, and functional.  Why, then, should we abuse our bodies with late night activities that accomplish nothing or stretching our body to the limit when we need rest?  Or even oversleeping and keeping our body and mind from being active, we turn ourselves into vegetables (although, I do love being lazy).

After we get past that barrier, this next part is definitely tough.  It's hard to put ourselves into another person's shoes, but we could at least treat others the way we would like to be treated.  Yet, there are people who treat other people like crap and they don't even realize that if they had someone talk to them in the same way, they would be furious!  People with such volatile personalities usually don't realize the actions they have done to others and continue to perpetual a cycle of anger in this world... when it could have just ended with a polite, "I don't like the way you treat me."  It sounds cheesy and stupid, but people always throw away the option of politely expressing their distaste with a certain action and just dismiss the possibility that it may work... just because they've never seen it work.

Maybe it's because they never use it?

What bothers me the most is the fact that people die.  The person you insult today may die tomorrow.  You may never get the chance to show your loved ones that you truly love them.  If you spend more than 80% of your day avoiding them or raising your voice to them, then how could they even trust that you loved them?

I live each day knowing that the people around me may die some day.  People may not get along with me, but if I can help it, I would never want to leave the last word as an insult or hurtful word.

I hope that you all may see that as well.  Love your parents, spouses, friends, siblings, anyone you meet.  That is what Valentine's Day should be like.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

The Pride Test

Man... I fail so many of these...  =(

Lord, please let me focus more on You and others rather than myself.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Performing Below Par

Today was a horrible horrible day.  I was (and still am) angry and disappointed at myself for not giving my best to God.  I hate it when I don't prepare enough for Bible Study and my students do not get the opportunity to learn as much as they should have.

These are the times I feel like the worst teacher ever.

Still, through these times where I feel horrible, I want to overcome.  God has shown me so much of my weaknesses and pride.  I never want to resort to my self-destructive pride, but, instead, resort to the power of my almighty God.

I need to prepare more with prayer and with action.  Lord, forgive me for my sin and help me to be a better ambassador and steward for you.

Thank you for the chance to meet such wonderful students.

Edit: You know the worst part of today?  It was the fact that I put on a tone of voice that I never wanted to put on within my classroom.  The stupid arrogant and "matter-of-fact" tone that I always despised... I actually used it.  So much shamed filled me after I taught my class and I never want to rely upon my own self to teach my class ever again.

Please Lord... don't let me be the teacher for your students.  May you teach my students through me instead.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Cleanin' My Room!

Well, I tried, but it's hard to clean my room.  I'm glad I'm living on my own, since my mom won't be able to see how messy my room is.  Well, I'll try to clean more later.

On another note, happy Chinese New Years!  Woot woot!  =D

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Helplessness Doesn't Have To Lead To Despair

Last month, I had many moments where I felt helpless.  I thought I could do great things for God and really have people appreciate it, but someone else would come along and do it better or I would totally mess up something I could have prevented.

After that happens, I feel so helpless.  The knowledge I've gained and the power I've accumulated amounted to nothing when I couldn't achieve a goal or stop a situation.  I look further back and see all the times I was able to overcome and look at myself now with disappointment.

Then it hits me.  Everything so far hasn't been for naught.  The Lord is still building me up, even though I was so focused on how I could accomplish things instead of focusing on giving my all and letting God make things happen.

Sure, it's not that huge of a revelation.  It's probably something I should already know... but I'm always reminded that repentance isn't always a one time thing.  Sin may come back without us realizing it, but God's still there to catch us when we fall.  He's still smiling and cheering us on... and I'm glad I have such an awesome God with me.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Learning While Sick

I've been sick for 3 days now, and I found out that my phlegm color changed from yellow-green to white.  I was a little curious, so I looked up a website that explained a little bit about phlegm color:

Phlegm Color Guide
The color of phlegm can help diagnose a lot about the persons health. Different phlegm color, means a different type of infection. The following phlegm color meaning will help you understand the infection or cause better.
  • White Color Phlegm: White or clear phlegm color means it is a sign of healthy body.
  • Light Yellow Color Phlegm: Light yellow phlegm color is a sign of a well-functioning immune system. It signifies that your immune system is having tough fight within your body and is at the beginning or end of a sinus infection. It is a sign of viral infection in the upper respiratory tract.
  • Dark Yellow Color Phlegm: It means a bacterial infection or lower respiratory tract infection.
  • Brown Color Phlegm: Brown phlegm color meaning is often associated with people who smoke. You can find the phlegm mixed with your saliva. When you spread out the phlegm, you will find it to be grainy textured. This means it is mixed with dust and foreign matter due to damage to cilia commonly observed in COPD patients. If you are smoking too much, the phlegm color will be brown due to resin sticking to it. Just cut down on your smoking if you observe this, as it may worsen the underlying respiratory problems.
  • Green Color Phlegm: Green phlegm color means you have been infected and is commonly observed in cases of pneumonia and internal micro-bleedings. The phlegm is green in color due to an enzyme called myeloperoxidases (MPO), that is green in color. It is present in white blood cells and bacteria attract more white cells than viruses.
  • Blood Color Phlegm: Blood in phlegm is a benign symptom of a bronchitis. The phlegm is normally streaked with blood. When you are coughing up a significant amount of blood, it may be a sign of major illness such as tuberculosis. You need to seek immediate medical attention, in case the amount of blood is more than normal.

So I guess that means I'm getting better!  Woot woot!

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Stepping forward in android development

I finally figured out how to use the intents in android and adding the activities in the androidmanifest (which is why I was stuck on it for so long... ugh...)!

Can't wait to do more coding!  =D

Christmas Gifts From My Students

When I went to church at New Years Eve, I found out two of my students gave me a Christmas present! Take a look! =D
This is Heidi's gift and now I finally have a picture to put up in my room! My favorite part is the note in the picture and the card. Words mean so much to me! =)
Joon gave me this awesome present! I wasn't sure what it was, but I was delighted to find out...
That is was CHOCOLATE! I love chocolate! =)

Thank you so much, my awesome students! I feel horrible that I couldn't give gifts to you (except for those ghetto greeting cards), but I hope that you will continue to give the gift of joy, that you have given to me, to other people!

Thank you so much! *sniff* =')